43 days more and I am ready to suck it up”

 

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Pressures and forces, huh?

The gravitational force of the tide (I’m talking about wedding pressures)  has made me realized that I have to stick to writing for my blog in order to keep me sane for the rest of the day. Everyday perhaps or every time I have something on mind to write about weddings, I think I have to “blog it to post” just to make me a fine lady through out the entire time of preparation. This blog is all about it anyway, why not write it all?

Now, define a fine lady?

If you are from Elizabethan era or the day of Victoria, perhaps, your glamor and poise would still be the talk of the day. But since “DIY Wedding” is the trend in 21st century bride, I guess fine lady is equivalent to what we called now day, a”bridezilla”.

Scary, ehh? Well, I won’t turn myself into a bridezilla of course (I hope not)!

But wedding could be quite nerve-wracking at times. The pull and the push of how wedding could be stressful put me into moods too many I couldn’t put my finger on. My being cool (I thought I was) hasn’t been tested like this so far till now.

Forty three more days and oh boy, oh my, I have some weird feelings just thinking about it. Am I ready to suck it up? I think I am just a ninny thinking of it when there’s nothing to worry about.

“But could anybody explain what is this I feel?”

“Wedding jitters?….”

“What’s wedding jitters anyway?”

Right now, the unfamiliar heart beat that beats which I did not know exist tried to change my way of thinking about weddings.

Perhaps, I am just making it a big deal. Big deal huh?

Well, why not?

It’s a big step, big change, you see? This kind of change is a no turning back point of my life. While God hates divorce, I have to respect God in all the matters concerning marriage. My goal is to please him and how could I please him when I have this unexplained heartbeat that seems to make me like a scared nine years old kid who’s ready to pee her pants at any minute? Okay, I’m just kidding. Seriously speaking, yes, I am scared and I hope it is natural.

But don’t get me wrong, to suck it up (title of the post) means- I have to endure and prepare my heart for the challenge and make peace with my future; brighter than yesterday I supposed. Since Paul took an oath of warning  about the trouble that marriage people has to face in this present generation, I must at least prepare on whatever trouble he never bother to mention in 1 Cor. 7:28.

Knowing that marriage is the course I did not remember to take during my college years, I am not sure what to expect. Apparently, I am on for a big surprise. With a loving fiance on my side, friends, family and of course God, I believe I will be okay. As for today, and the next day to come, to abide Matthew 6:34 “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow for  tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” is a good antidote for my being a worrywart.

So I am just going to take a deep breath and write and write and write until I will make my heart right.

Inhale.

Exhale.

Breathe….

Hey, 43 days …here I come!